Wholeness Revealed

Wholeness was revealed on October 1 when Laurence left this chapter of his life and went on to the next. I will be the first to admit that his passing does not fit my pictures of what I had prayed for and what I envisioned for our life together. But I know prayer is always answered and it was answered in a way that was as big as Laurence’s energy, as big as his capacity for life and for love, as big as his love for God.

Many times Laurence and I had talked about transitions. He had supported several family members and friends through their last days of life. We commented how the ideal way to leave this life is to let go while asleep, peacefully and without pain and suffering.

His doctors told us in June that he wasn’t strong enough to fight the fungal brain infection, weak heart and multiple strokes. We expected him to take this opportunity to leave peacefully but he didn’t. He woke up, regained strength and speech. The fungal brain infection mysteriously disappeared, his heart became stronger and even the cerebral hemorrhage began to heal. He was responding to therapy and relearning how to walk.

Dozens, no hundreds of people responded to my request and joined with prayers for wholeness. Friends appealed to other friends and prayers rippled out. People who didn’t normally pray were actively envisioning wholeness for Laurence.

Isn't that just like Laurence? His dream of ministering to others became a reality as we all lifted our hearts and minds in prayer. He ministered to every doctor, nurse, technician as love filled his room. He gave grateful thanks to each person whether they took blood, administered tests or emptied the trash.

Eventually his body could no longer cope with his symptoms. Laurence grew weaker and pain increased. He fought for over one hundred days until he said he was finished. I realize now how graciously prayer was answered. There was no way this extraordinary man of courage and strength was going to slip away in the dark of night. Wholeness was revealed for Laurence as he intentionally walked each step of his journey. Once he decided to let go, he consciously said goodbye to his family and friends. His body grew weaker but his voice was clear as he whispered constant words of gratitude and love to God in his last days.

Wholeness was revealed for each of us as we were called to love more graciously, pray more intimately and expand our faith. We were all lifted in an amazing experience of God’s love and a deepening of faith.

Thank you for walking this journey with me. Thank you for your extraordinary prayers and love. I trust your life was changed forever from knowing Laurence as mine was.

This is my last entry for this blog. It seems appropriate on the last day of this year. I will continue to blog at Empowered Thoughts and share my experience of grief at Missing My Beloved.

May God continue to bless you and may every prayer you prayed for us be abundantly returned to you. May God continue to reveal wholeness in every area of your life.

With loving gratitude.

Extraordinary Heroes

My heart overflows with gratitude every time I think of all the loving support Laurence received from the medical community. I wish I could thank every doctor, nurse, CNA, technician, and hospital staff member that made a difference in our lives. They are extraordinary heroes that blessed us.

Just a few of the heroes and angels we met:

Dr. Segal and the staff at the NW Cancer Center
Providence Hospital Cancer Center
Surgeons and staff at Providence Hospital
Dr. Samagh and the staff at Providence Medical Group/Bethany
Hyperbaric technicians at Providence Hospital
Wound care nurses at St. Vincent Hospital
Dr Grajewski and the staff at OHSU bone marrow transplant unit
Dr. Wilson and the staff at Good Samaritan Hospital Rehabilitation Unit
Speech, occupational, recreational and physical therapists at Good Samaritan Hospital
OSHU Intensive Care Unit
OHSU infusion clinic
Odyssey Hospice Care

There are more whose names I can’t remember. I give thanks for the gracious support and amazing professional care we have received over the years. We are so blessed in Portland to have extraordinary professionals in our medical community. May God bless each and every one.

Talks from Laurence's memorial service are available to download:

Rev Marcia Sutton click here

Chris McClure click here

Rev Christine Green click here

Grateful Thanks

December 22 will be the one year anniversary of Laurence's diagnosis with leukemia. He was admitted to the hospital on Christmas Eve.

I miss him terribly although there are days where I feel Laurence is standing next to me telling me not to worry and showering me with his love. Several times I experienced solutions appear to pressing problems and felt his guidance.

I am so grateful for each of you and how dedicated you've been to reading the blog and sending prayers. I have felt your love and support and it has lifted me on many days when I could barely cope.

My prayer for you is that every prayer you have prayed is abundantly returned to you. My the Christ's Love and Grace bless you and your family.

God Bless You.

Hugs.

Thanksgiving Blessings

As we prepare to celebrate Thanksgiving tomorrow, I want to extend my deep appreciation and grateful thanks for your generous acts of kindness, your partnership and prayers this year. May you and your families have a blessed and loving Thanksgiving holiday.

With loving thanks.

Memorial Talk

Rev Marcia gave Laurence a beautiful tribute on Saturday. You are welcome to download her talk. Click here

I am so grateful to everyone who helped make the day possible. Each of you is an amazing blessing to me.

With loving gratitude.

Legacy of Love

I am so grateful to everyone that attended the service today. It was bittersweet to feel such deep sadness and then incredible joy to see friends I haven't seen in a while. There was truly a presence of love and grace in the room.

Thanks for your gracious comments about my talk. Here it is:


Legacy of Love
By Rev Christine Green

Laurence made living in love seem effortless and natural. Looking back I realize now his unwavering intention and commitment. There were simple principles that allowed him to live a life of love and grace.

Paid attention. Laurence gave each person his full concentration. Whether it was the waiter bringing his meal or the nurse drawing his labs, he inquired about their jobs, families and their interests. He remembered birthdays and anniversaries and acknowledged important dates. He stayed connected with his Mom, his siblings and his children. He took the time to truly listen. I was so grateful for his willingness to listen to my ideas, concerns and dreams. Unless of course it was a Sunday in the middle of a game during football season or Saturday during college season or March Madness. But other than that, he was an extraordinary listener.

Stepped aside. He opened the door for everyone and always let others go ahead. This simple act was a symbol for his humbleness and generosity. He genuinely wanted others to succeed. He didn’t dwell on disappointment but focused on the next task at hand. Rather than be hurt by an offhand comment, he would step aside from the remark and not take it personally. He was willing to forgive.

Spread joy. Laurence had a great sense of humor, a brilliant smile and a contagious laugh. When times were tense, he spoke up in one of his funny voices or cracked a silly joke. His face lit up with joy when he talked about his children and grandchildren. When I was worried or troubled, he took my hand and we danced.

Gave thanks. Laurence’s most frequent words were thank you. He blessed and gave thanks each day for his family. He thanked me for doing the laundry, for running errands and for taking care of our home. He thanked every person in the hospital whether they emptied the trash, took his blood or diagnosed a test. He always noticed and acknowledged what people were doing right. And he always gave thanks to God.

Walked in faith. Laurence was deeply devoted to God and never once lost his faith. After his stroke he fervently practiced reading and memorizing Psalm 103. He joyfully prayed with each prayer partner that entered his room.

Doing each of these things alone is admirable. Together they morph into the exquisite expression of love. This was Laurence’s legacy of love. But I realized there was one more thing.

Laurence taught me how to receive. Receive his love and generosity as a husband, his compassion and thoughtfulness as my friend, his wisdom as my teacher. He reminded me each day of the importance of receiving God’s love.

When our world unraveled with Laurence’s health challenges this past year I once again learned to receive. I asked for your prayers and you responded earnestly. I needed help at the hospital and a team of loving, supportive friends visited Laurence regularly for five months at the hospital and rehab, to talk with him, pray with him, laugh with him, and assist him with whatever he needed. I am so grateful to receive your homemade meals, airport rides, massages, your loving phone calls, encouraging emails and your constant prayers. Thank you so much for your generosity and for your gracious gifts.

One day at the hospital I read a few of the letters and cards you sent to Laurence and when I finished he commented, “We have stellar friends.” Yes we do. Praise God.

Thank you for being stellar friends. Thank you for being gracious givers and receivers. Laurence was truly a gift from God. We have all been blessed and are changed forever. I love you Laurence. Thank you God.

A Gift

Thank you for reading this blog and for your continued prayers. You have been awesome partners on this journey.

In grateful thanks I have a gift for you. Laurence recorded The Lord's Prayer several years ago and I would like to share that recording with you. Right click on the link to download the prayer.
The Lord's Prayer

I hope you see you on Saturday. Thanks again for your support and love.

With loving gratitude,
Christine

In Memory

Laurence Mark Green
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Green, Laurence Mark 53 02/09/1957 10/01/2010

Our beloved Laurence passed away peacefully at home Friday, Oct. 1, 2010, after enduring a long and heroic fight with cancer. Laurence is survived by his wife, Christine; children, Jason, Melinda, and Daniel; grandchildren, Maryssa, Makenzie, Jaiden, Jayla, and Jenaya; mother, Martha; six sisters; and five brothers. Born one of 17 children in Los Angeles, Laurence developed a great sense of humor and a deep caring for his family. Over the years he worked in restaurant management, catering, health food sales, and financial planning. He was an ordained minister. Laurence's radiant smile and loving heart always reminded us to be grateful for all that we share in this abundant life. He is truly missed and his spirit will be a blessing to us always. A celebration of life ceremony will be held at 11 a.m. Saturday, Nov. 13, 2010, in Sunset Presbyterian Church, Portland. Contributions are graciously accepted in Laurence's name to Sacred Heart Ministries, P.O. Box 3422, Portland, OR 97208.

Published in The Oregonian on November 7, 2010

Hotel Reservations

We have a special hotel rate for a block of rooms at the Phoenix Inn. To make your reservation call 503-614-8100 and make reservations under "Green Family Memorial." The rate is $79 plus tax for reservations on November 12 and 13. Reservations must be made by November 1st. Please contact me if you have any questions.


Blessings.

Celebration of Life

Please join us for a celebration of Laurence’s life and a tribute to God’s love hosted by Sacred Heart Ministries.

Saturday, November 13, 2010
Sunset Presbyterian Church
14986 NW Cornell Rd
Portland, OR 97229
11:00 a.m.
Reception following service

We are in the process of arranging for a special hotel rate at the nearby Phoenix Inn for those who are traveling from out of town. I will post when details are available.

Thank you for your continued prayers. You are a blessing.

Team in Training

Many thanks to Laurence's high school friend Bonny and Team Green (in photo: Robin, Ron, Bonny, David and Diane) for braving the rainy NW weather and running in the Portland Marathon on Sunday in honor of Laurence. It was an privilege to meet the team and cheer them on. Members from Team Green will take part in the Long Beach marathon next weekend.

Heidi Hill also participated in the Portland Marathon Yesterday and proudly wore a special ribbon for Laurence on her purple Team in Training jersey. Heidi is running with her mom and sister in the Nike Women's marathon in San Francisco next weekend. Heidi and her family will head to Athens, Greece, to participate in the 2,500th anniversary of the original marathon (from Marathon, Greece, to Athens, Greece) on October 31. Awesome!

Thank you all for your dedication and commitment and for bringing attention to finding a cure for Leukemia. Thank you for honoring Laurence and for making a difference. Laurence is smiling...

Date Set

Memorial Service scheduled for Saturday, November 13.
More details to follow.

You are a blessing.

Message from Sandi

I have been thinking about my time with Laurence over the years and about our recent visits at the hospital, then at home where he was under hospice care. His life has touched so many people in so many different ways. What stands out in my mind right now is his gratitude. While visiting him at the hospital, he said "thank you" more times than I could possibly count. He thanked every person every time they came into his room. Whether it was to feed him, take his blood, empty the trashcan - it didn't matter. He thanked each for their caregiving and support.

"An attitude of gratitude" and similar phrases are not unfamiliar to me. I have heard numerous strategies such as "write a thank-you note every day" or "think of something you are thankful for before you go to sleep at night." In my time with Laurence, however, I encountered an example of the gratitude that St. Paul meant when he wrote "in every thing give thanks."

Laurence had many reasons to feel frustrated or discouraged, angry or afraid. I know he experienced much pain and discomfort. Even so, he has provided me with the most striking example of gratitude I have ever seen in my 59 years. For that, all I can say is,

Thank you, Laurence.

Rest

Thank you for your calls and emails. I am being supported by my spiritual sisters and my spiritual mentor. Family has left. Time to rest.

Thanks for your prayers.

Missing Him

Book learning and research is utterly useless when facing death. Whatever preparation I thought I had was meaningless when death arrived just after midnight. Reality is shattered along with my heart. I am so grateful for the comfort of family and friends and for your faithful prayers.

While I know Laurence is at peace and that wholeness has been revealed in an extraordinary way, I already miss touching his face and holding his hand. He lives now in our hearts. Your prayers and loving messages are most deeply appreciated.

A memorial service is being planned. I will share details as they are available.

In lieu of flowers, contributions are graciously accepted in Laurence’s name to Sacred Heart Ministries, PO Box 3422, Portland, OR 97208. All gifts are tax deductible.

With gratitude.

Peace

"And can it be that in a world so full and busy the loss of one creature makes a void so wide and deep that nothing but the width and depth of eternity can fill it up" Charles Dickens

He is at peace.

Love

While I do not fear death, I am overwhelmed at the thought of grief. I fear it to be an enormous black hole filled with despair and darkness. I am grateful for the support of several ministers and many friends who have been walking with me through this journey for the past three years and helping move through the stages of grief.

I realized while I am feeling these feelings of sadness, you may be as well. It is no surprise to anyone reading this that Laurence was deeply loved by a vast number of people. He left an indelible mark on everyone he connected with, however brief the encounter. He was a man of extraordinary patience, love and kindness.

I believe his consciousness is already one with God. Although his body is here, he no longer lives in our home but in the eternal goodness of God’s love and grace. You are free to take your message directly to him. Talk with him. Share with him the difference he made in your life. Write a letter in your journal. Share about him with a friend.

We had a powerful prayer circle tonight as we acknowledged his gifts and love. He is still sleeping peacefully. Thank you for sending prayers of love and peace.

Resting

Laurence is resting peacefully. It is a blessing to have him at home. His pain is being managed with a morphine pump. Although he is no longer able to speak, his presence is one of peace and love.

Thanks for your gracious prayers.

Moving Today

Laurence needed another day a the hospital so his pain could be managed. He is comfortable now and is headed home this afternoon.

Thanks for your prayers.

Message from Bonny

FYI: Laurence's birth name was Larry until he changed it in 1998.

I am a friend of Larry’s from high school - He was a blessing to ALL of us then and he still is 35 years later! I decided to raise money for The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society in his name and will be running in the Portland Marathon along with some friends as Team Green. Check out our website.

I am also hosting a wine bottling/bake sale fundraiser to help Christine & Larry with the expenses of everyday life & their mounting medical bills.


As Larry was making his decision to move to hospice last Saturday (I had no idea) I was thinking this:

"As I was out there this morning at 5 am pounding the pavement doing 14 miles.....I pondered why??? A song came on my ipod that said it all...this is the time of my life!! The time to do something for a very dear friend that he is unable to do right now ♥

I pondered what an awesome man Larry Green is...how he touched sooo many of us in high school & still today 35 years later...I saw his handsome face as moved forward: I do it for you Larry ..my friend..my hero ♥

If you would like to donate you can contact me via email @...bonster555@aol.com
Thank you.
Bonny

Surrender

When Laurence was in the hospital last January receiving chemo he told me that in his next career he wanted to be the chaplain on the 14th floor at OHSU and help other patients dealing with leukemia. While he never completed any chaplaincy program, his presence of love ministers to all those who care for him, pray for him, love him and think of him. His chaplaincy moves far beyond the 14th floor as his friends and family around the world are touched by his light and love.

Laurence consciously made a choice to move into hospice care. There is a beautiful presence of freedom and peace about him. He will be moved home on Saturday. His family started to arrive today. His clarity and strength continue to be amazing.

You continue to be a blessing every step of this journey. I will keep you informed of the process. Your prayers for peace and freedom are appreciated.

With loving gratitude.

Message from Lynn

I was honored when Christine asked me to visit Laurence in the hospital to give him Reiki. This hands-on-healing technique is essentially a Japanese stress-reduction practice, but for me it has evolved to include a profound Christian aspect. I have been praying for Laurence over the past year, and have always felt his strong loving connection with Jesus. I was still unprepared in my Reiki sessions with Laurence to see and feel the presence of Jesus in the room with us. It has been a gift I can barely write about without tears of gratitude.

During my most recent visit, while I was leaning over one side of Laurence with my hands over his heart, I could feel Jesus doing the same on the other side. At one point I closed my eyes in prayer, and as I saw Jesus approach the bed in my mind’s eye, the sun pulsed brighter and brighter through my eyelids. Each time I have been with Laurence, I have been humbled by the great feeling of Love that fills the room.

Laurence’s ministry of Love and Compassion is evident even as he lay sleeping in his hospital bed.

Peace

It's been a tough few days. The steroids are taking a toll with increased anxiety. Otherwise there are no changes.

Your prayers for peace are appreciated.

Changes

Laurence was moved to another room today that has a lift. He has lost a lot of mobility over the past week and can no longer stand to move from the bed to his wheelchair. The lift allows his nurse to transport him in a sling which will make it easier and safer to move him.

His doctor said they will be increasing his steroid meds to help combat his stomach distress. It is a little risky but they are anxious to find a solution to his pain and discomfort. They will continue the antibiotic for his bladder infection. Of all his symptoms, the bladder infection is the most serious. His doctors said that the infection is possibly preventing his bone marrow from producing adequate blood cells and platelets. All of this is taking a toll on his mental abilities and he has increased anxiety and confusion.

Despite everything going on in Laurence's body, there is an extraordinary presence of love that surrounds him. His smile radiates love as it always has.

I am so grateful for the dedicated staff that cares for him and so grateful for all of you for your continued prayers and love.

Blessings.

Thanks for your prayers

Laurence has received blood products and platelets the past few days. He continues to be treated for the infections. He has occasional pain in his abdomen and is very tired.

The doctors are keeping a close eye on him. It will be at least a week before they know if the meds for the bladder infection are working.

Thanks so much for your continued prayers.

Blessings.

Faith

Laurence's bladder infection returned along with an infection in his colon. His doctor put him on a new more aggressive antibiotic.

Laurence's doctor sent in five different specialists to help brainstorm how to best treat his infections.

Our friends Sandi and Lynn both reminded me of the scripture from Matthew 17:20:


I tell you the truth. If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.

Thank you for your continued prayers and partnership and knowing that wholeness is revealed.

Finding Peace

Laurence's white blood cell count was very low today. His doctor performed another bone marrow biopsy trying to find out why it has dropped so quickly.

Laurence is frustrated from so many symptoms attacking so many places in his body. Every time he is anxious we pray together and he especially finds peace in Psalm 103:

Bless the LORD, O my soul:
and all that is within me,
bless his holy name.
Bless the LORD, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits:
He forgives all my iniquities
and heals all my diseases;
He redeems my life from destruction
and crowns me with loving kindness and tender mercies;
He satisfies my mouth with good things;
so that my youth is renewed like the eagle's.

With love and gratitude.

Quiet Days

Quiet few days. Laurence's symptoms have calmed without food but not disappeared. He still suffers on occasion from a queasy stomach.

Many thanks for your continued prayers and good thoughts.

Blessings.

Nine Years

Laurence's symptoms are showing no sign of improvement so this morning he was taken off all liquids. He started receiving IV fluids and nutrition. By stopping all digestive activity his doctor hopes to calm the GVHD. The benefit is that he will be receiving nutrition and protein which he has been missing from a liquid diet. He is very tired and other than occasional cramping is not experiencing pain.

Today is our nine year wedding anniversary. We said a prayer of gratitude for our partnership and the blessings in our lives. You are an amazing part of our blessings.
Thank you so much.

Quiet Days

Quiet few days. Attempts to move off the liquid diet have been unsuccessful.

Laurence worked a little with physical therapy today. He was glad to get some exercise.

Thanks for your continued prayers.

Blessings.

Blessed Day

Less pain and more clarity today. Laurence had a great talk with his Mom.

I asked Laurence what he would like to say about today. "Today was a blessed day. Everything was blessed all the way around."

Praise God.

Love in Action

The urinary tract infection that Laurence has is a tough one. His doctors have him on several antibiotics to heal the infection and steroids to fight the graft vs host (GVHD). He is now on an all liquid diet to help the colon rest and repair.

He is twelve weeks into his transplant, so his doctor did a bone marrow biopsy to measure his progress. We should have results in a few days.

We did have a good report this week. Result of an MRI shows improvement over the last one done in June. Praise God!

In spite of pain and discomfort, Laurence continues to inspire everyone with his gracious kindness and love. He is truly an example of love in action.

Faith, prayers and love get us through each day. Thank you for thinking of us and sending prayers our way.

"Cast all your cares on the Lord, and he will sustain you." Psalm 55:22

Back to OHSU

Laurence was re-admitted to OHSU yesterday afternoon. The doctor at rehab was concerned about his dehydration, confusion and host of other symptoms and contacted his oncologist at OHSU. His test results show that he has a urinary tract infection and the beginning stages of graft vs host disease. His doctor started him on new meds.

He rested today and was finally able to eat some soup. He had a slight fever tonight.

I am grateful that he is in the right place and getting the treatment he needs. I am grateful for your prayers.

Blessings.

Test Results

Laurence had the test on Wednesday to look at his GI tract and the report shows he has significant ulcers in his colon. He has had a difficult time eating and digesting for at past two weeks. We will find out today what meds will be prescribed.

Laurence is very frustrated, confused and sad. He told me yesterday he so wants to be healthy again. He had a tough day with his therapies.

RIO recommends the family member spends 24 hours at the hospital taking care of the patient without assistance. It is intended to help understand all that goes into care of the patient. My 24 hours starts this afternoon. I accept all prayers for strength, ease and grace.

Each day is a walk in faith. I accept medical bills are paid, resources are provided and help is available each day. Your prayers are a blessing.

God Provides

We had our weekly appointment at OHSU yesterday. Laurence has had digestion problems for a week now. His doctor wants to run another test for graft vs host disease. Not sure when that will happen.

We are preparing for Laurence to be at home by the end of the month. There is concern (from his doctors) that I will burn out from taking care of him. I am well aware that I cannot do the job alone--his medical needs are tremendous. The other option is to place him in skilled nursing facility and that is not an option for me. Insurance will pay for his stay at a skilled nursing facility but will not pay $25/hr for a home health aide to help out and provide respite care. That makes no sense to me. I know Laurence will get better by being at home and not in another facility.

I know that God's blessings will show up as the help, resources, finances, respite care and whatever is needed. Thank you for your continued prayers.

Back to RIO

It's been a busy few days. Laurence was transferred back to RIO on late Friday afternoon. He still has a queasy stomach but all his tests came back negative for any infection.

Laurence is expected to be discharged sometime in the next week. Although it is great news, there are many details to be handled in order for him to be safe and healthy at home.

Will you please stand in agreement with our intentions:

1. We gratefully accept that daily medical and health needs are met with ease and grace.

2. We accept loving assistance from friends and family in supporting Laurence’s daily activities.

3. We live in gratitude for the gracious abundance of Christ knowing all our financial needs are met.

4. We gratefully live in safety, free from harm or injury, being fully protected at all times.

5. We gratefully know that every person participating in Laurence’s care is blessed and prospered from their service.

For it is written: “The Lord watches over us—the sun will not harm by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord will keep us from all harm—he will watch over our life.” Psalm 121:5-7

Thank you for your continued prayers and love.

A Good Report

Laurence was transferred to a room on the 14th floor late last night. Just another small miracle in the life of Laurence! Had lots of tests, received blood and a hefty dose of antibiotics.

He was feeling much better today. Did great work with his therapists and they were thrilled to see his progress since he has been in rehab.

The results of most of his tests are in and are negative. Praise God! Still waiting for results of blood cultures. Hoping to head back to rehab by Saturday.

We are so blessed with your prayers. May God's abundant blessings be returned to you.

"Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust in him and he will do this..." Psalm 37:4-5

Day 69

Laurence was admitted to OHSU today after his appointment with his oncologist. He's had several issues the last several days, enough to cause his doctor to be concerned and admit him to the hospital.

Unfortunately, the hospital is 110% full and there are no available beds, so he is spending tonight in the emergency room. Laurence is such a trooper. In spite of the noise, confusion and conditions, he is calm and peaceful.

Please join me in knowing that wisdom guides the doctors and harmony prevails in the ER and wholeness is revealed.

Blessings.

Visitor

Laurence's sister Janet from Oakland was here for the weekend. Laurence was so glad to see her. It was great to listen to them reminisce about family.

He had a tough day today dealing with digestion issues. We take so much for granted about our bodies. I continue to stand in faith knowing that wholeness is revealed in Laurence each and every day. Thanks for your loving prayers.

Walking in Faith

June 26 Doctors predict bleak and doubtful future
June 29 Laurence leaves ICU and returns to the transplant unit on 14th floor
July 14 Laurence is able to sit up in bed
July 15 Laurence transfers to rehab at Good Sam


August 5 Laurence is walking!! Praise God!

A million thank you's for your continued prayers!

Day 62

Went to the weekly appointment so see Laurence's oncologist yesterday at OHSU. We discovered that Laurence does not have a bladder infection but his symptoms are related to the graft-versus-host disease from his transplant. His doctor prescribed new meds.

Laurence had a peaceful but busy day. Thanks for your continued prayers.

Blessings.

Grateful

I'm grateful to the blessed friends who made it possible for me to take a day for myself on Sunday. Praise God for gracious blessings!

Laurence did a great job in therapy today. Bladder infection is better but still persisting.

Blessings to you for your prayers and love.

XOXOXXO

Resilience

Laurence has a bladder infection and has been in intense pain the past few days. You would never know it by looking at him. He is always pleasant and is so gracious with his therapists and nurses.

Neither of us ever imagined this outcome when Laurence entered the hospital 68 days ago. His determination and resilience are inspiring. Your prayers keep us going. Thank you so much.

Hugs.

Good Reports

Good reports from our weekly visit with the OHSU transplant doctor and with the rehab doctor yesterday. The rehab therapists are pleased with Laurence's progress.

I am very grateful for your prayers and good thoughts.

Blessings.

In The Moment

It was a tough weekend. Although Laurence has many successes each day, he has a mountain of challenges that face him. One effect of the stroke is that his brain hasn't caught up with the reality of his circumstances. He lives only in the moment and rejoices each new accomplishment.

I think it may be the way God intended for us to live. I've never been more aware of the courage and depth of faith that it takes.

Laurence's Wisdom of the Day: This is not a race to be won.

Blessings.

Unplugged

Laurence is unplugged! His feeding tube was removed today. Praise God. He is relearning to use utensils and I am learning the art of eating very very very slowly. It is a joy to help him eat and he is so appreciative of food.

His nurse commented today that usually she sees progress in a patient once a week. Laurence has a new skill every day.

We give all glory to God for the daily blessings. Thanks for your partnership and love.

Hugs.

Good Reports

Laurence and I went to OHSU yesterday to see the transplant doctor. Dr G was pleased to see Laurence's improvement. Laurence will have a bone marrow biopsy in a couple of weeks to further evaluate the transplant.

Every Tuesday is a conference at RIO with the doctors and all therapists giving their reports on Laurence's progress. Although it is too early to establish a timeline, they were each encouraged with Laurence's progress.

Laurence and I say a prayer before I leave and it is wonderful to hear him pray again. His words are clear and strong.

"Whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." Mark 11:24 Thank you for your gracious prayers and love.

Determination

Days are very full with therapy. Speech therapists are working on getting Laurence to swallow so he can eat and get the feeding tube taken out. Made some good progress today.

Laurence is so determined! He's starting to become aware of how much he needs to relearn and has moments of feeling overwhelmed. But he is a fighter. Every time a therapist asks if he wants to stop he says no and keeps going.

I tell him every day how many people are praying for us. We send you prayers of thanksgiving and love. We are both very grateful.

XOXOXOXXO

Giving Thanks

Today was very peaceful compared to the hectic day yesterday. Laurence was out of bed and in a wheelchair for about three hours today. His nurse took him on a tour of the rehab area and he used the arm cycle machine. Praise God!

His therapy schedule is intense. He is definitely worn out by the end of the day. Still dealing with a low grade infection.

I had a chance to soak in the beauty of the peaceful meditation garden on the hospital grounds this afternoon and and give thanks for all our blessings and for all of you. Thank you so much.

Blessings.

Moving Day

The move over to RIO went smoothly. The new therapists visited him anxious to evaluate and get a plan ready. I'm exhausted... I can only imagine how tired Laurence is from the changes.

Your prayers are very welcome for peaceful rest and renewed energy.

Hugs.

Accepted!

Insurance approved, doctors agreed and Laurence will be transferred tomorrow to RIO-- the Rehabilitation Institute of Oregon located at Good Samaritan Hospital. Praise God!!

His therapists were thrilled with his progress today. He sat up longer and his muscles are getting stronger. His therapists are confident that he will see even more progress with RIO's intense therapy program of three hours a day.

Laurence is still within his first 100 days of transplant so care must be taken to prevent infection. Laurence will have to go back to OHSU if there is any related transplant problems.

I am in deep gratitude for your persistent prayers, love and support. I know every good word is returned to you multiplied! "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him and have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28

Blessings.

Catching Up

Acute rehab sent their representative to evaluate Laurence today. Waiting to hear their decision and also hear from the insurance company.

Laurence told me "I just want you to know that I am catching up." I know he is working hard.

Your prayers are priceless and deeply appreciated.

Next Steps

Laurence was restless today. I think he was missing his physical therapy session.

The next step in Laurence's progress is to move to rehab facility. I have been checking out different facilities nearby the past few days. I am hopeful that his doctors will recommend acute rehab which is about 3 to 4 hours of therapy a day.

Moving to rehab means leaving the 14th floor at OHSU. He's been there 47 days! Although I am very grateful for his progress, it's hard to imagine being somewhere else. The care there is exceptional. Thank you for your generous treats for the staff. They are amazing individuals.

My prayer is knowing that the next stage of Laurence's care is as professional, supportive and exceptional as the care he has been receiving. Thanks for your partnership and love.

One Day at a Time

Laurence has been working this week with physical therapy as well as occupational and speech therapy and is making slow but steady progress.

He had some intense pain from a bladder infection yesterday and is being treated for it and is more comfortable.

Some days can be overwhelming with all the challenges facing us. But I know faith and prayer get us through one day at a time. Thanks so much.

Hugs.

More Blessings

After a very sleepy weekend, Laurence was very awake and alert today. His voice was strong and clear. He worked with his occupational therapist for a while.

There are several rosaries hanging on his IV pole as well as a beautiful medal Tom and Heidi Hill brought back from the Seattle marathon. Today his nurse told me that he finished the last of his IV meds. Another amazing blessing. Praise God!

Loraine is back in Sacramento and our friend Dave heads back to Reno tomorrow. Having them both here has been so supportive and healing for me in so many ways and I know Laurence was lifted by their loving energy in the room.

The response from the staff to your generous treats is awesome to watch. They feel appreciated and Laurence is lovingly cared for.

Thank you for your continued love, support, generosity and prayers. I am grateful for God's gracious blessings.
XOXOXOXOXOXOX

Grace

A week ago Jason, Melinda, Daniel and I were devastated as the doctors told us of Laurence's failing health and suggested that we honor his last wishes. It was truly our darkest hour.

Prayer, patience and faith proved the test results to be in error and Laurence is improving each day. He replies to questions, says I love you and he hears everything. Today he winked at me and smiled. Praise God!

Even though the doctors are frustrated in not knowing exactly what happened after the transplant, they do know that Laurence suffered a stroke. It wasn't the best news to hear. But here is our report so far: the diagnosis of a fatal brain infection was reversed, the incurable blood disorder is on the mend and his weakened heart grows stronger each day. We could deal with this. Laurence is a fighter and we agreed to fight with him.

He continues to improve each day and is responding well to physical therapy. The cardiologist said he is not sure what happened but was happy to take credit for Laurence's improvement. I just smiled. There is no question in my mind that his recovery is due to your amazing partnership and prayer and God's extraordinary grace. "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to is purpose." Romans 8:28

With gratitude.

Grateful

Long day and a busy one. I am so grateful for homemade enchiladas, freshly baked cookies, relaxing bubble bath, delicious sandwich lovingly delivered, abundant hugs, caring phone calls, supportive emails, awesome prayers, amazing friends, precious words, loving family, daily miracles and God's extraordinary blessings.

Hugs.

Message from Amy

Dear Fellow Lovers of Laurence,

Here on the 14th floor of OSHU, Laurence rests and seems to draw strength with each breath. He hand-squeezed on command today, a milestone, although I half suspect that some of his failure to do so before now is simply his defiance over doing anything 'on command'. He has the most marvelous yawns, wide and deep, and he belly-laughs. He cries sometimes, apparently sad but not in pain. Last night he spoke "wonderful" in his own strong resonant voice.

The doctor says he is improving every day. Current plan is for another week or two here, and then on to rehabilitation before coming home.

Christine reminds me of a circling hawk, searching for some good news to 'prey' upon. One couldn't imagine greater devotion. The biggest response from L. was after I whispered in his ear that we were all taking good care of her - he quivered about a 10 on the richter scale.

I've had the intense pleasure of meeting his beautiful sister Lorraine, who is keeping watch over the three of us here. I don't think a day has gone by without someone from his family being with him.

That's all. Just wanted to chime in.
Yours,
Amy

Back to 14

Laurence was moved out of ICU yesterday and back to the bone marrow transplant unit on the 14th floor. His vitals were stable and he had a quiet day.

Laurence's twin sister, Loraine, is visiting from Sacramento and our friend Amy is also in town from the east coast. I appreciate them both being here.

Your letters are wonderful and I am enjoying reading them to Laurence. Each one is a precious gift. Thanks so much.

Power of Prayer

"Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." Mark 11:24

The doctors continue to search for answers while I am so grateful to each of you for standing firmly in your faith. At one point over the weekend, they came to us with devastating news that Laurence had a severe infection in his brain and if the infection didn't get the best of him, the medicine needed to treat it would. They rescinded their statement today, after the specialist read the test results and saw that there is no infection. Prayer in action. Praise God.

Laurence is awake and responding slowly. He cried, he smiled, he said his name. Tonight he told Daniel, "I love you too."

There are other theories and diagnoses but I feel the most important thing to know is that all things are possible in God. I truly believe that our job is to stand in the word of God and build our faith. This may be the greatest gift Laurence gives to us, to walk a closer walk with God. And the greatest gift we give to Laurence is to know Wholeness is revealed. Thank you so much.

Family Blessings

Paula left yesterday and arrived safely back in China. I will miss her terribly. She was a great support and friend these last 5 weeks.

Laurence's son Jason left today. Melinda leaves tomorrow and Daniel on Tuesday. It was a joy to have them here and get to know them better. This experience has brought us together in love in a powerful way. I know Laurence has been blessed by their presence.

Laurence is more alert. The breathing ventilator has been removed and he is breathing on his own. The doctors are still very concerned and cautious about his limited progress and multiple symptoms.

I am so grateful for the treats for the staff, rides to the airport and abundance of prayers and love. God is so gracious. Blessings.

Letters to Laurence

I miss my best friend. Even in the hospital we would call or text each other a dozen times a day. I have so many questions to ask and things to tell him.

I realized you have things you would like to tell him or share a memory you have of him. Please send them to me. I want to do two things: read them to him and publish your letters. Laurence can hear us but can't respond. I would love to read a message to him from you. Please let me know if I have your permission to publish.

Laurence has an amazing presence. The doctors and nurses are hearing stories from the staff on the 14th floor and they so want him to wake up so they can get to know him. I want to write about what an extraordinary man he is.

Send your letters to revgreen@sacredheartministries.org
I look forward to hearing from you. Thank you for your partnership and love.

Quiet Day

Quiet day. No changes. No news.
Thanks for your prayers.

Joy

Jason made two trips to the airport today with Paula. This morning he picked up his sister, Melinda who flew in from Houston and this afternoon he picked up his brother Daniel from New Orleans. Laurence perked up as each of them arrived. What a joy to have everyone together!

The doctors were pleased with his progress today. His movements may seem minor but they are significant changes from a week ago.

Prayers are answered every day in amazing ways. I know the healing presence of love continues to reveal wholeness, clarity and peace in so many ways. May your prayers be returned to you multiplied. Love XOXOXXOXOXO

A Response

Laurence definitely responded today to our voices. The doctors were also pleased to see his response to their commands. His platelet level continues to decrease even though he has received them two days in a row.

There are still a number of issues that are concerning to the doctors, including not understanding the cause of so many of his symptoms. Several other departments have been pulled into finding a solution.

We know wholeness and harmony for Laurence, clarity for the doctors and peace for all family members. Many thanks for your prayers and good thoughts.

Love and Light

Doctors ran more tests today. Ruled out some possible infections and was able to take Laurence off a couple of the antibiotics. Laurence received platelets this afternoon.

Treats for the hospital staff are always appreciated. These are amazingly dedicated individuals.

All things are possible in God. Thank you for your faith and prayers.
Love and Light.

Team Green

Another amazing group of people fighting the good fight of raising awareness and money for a cure for leukemia came together through Laurence's friend Bonny Violette. She gathered together a group of dedicated runners who will participate in the Portland Marathon in October. Please check out her web page and consider contributing to this worthy cause.

I am grateful to Bonny and Team Green for their support. There are breakthroughs in medicine and technology every day. If we work together we can ensure a cure is found quickly.

No news. A quiet day. Feeling the power of your prayers and love. "The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold." Psalm 18:2

With grateful thanks.

Love Expanded

It was a joy to have Jason with us today. I believe that Laurence knew he was there. I read his Father's Day cards from Jason, Melinda and Daniel and his grandkids. I know he was blessed by their loving wishes.

Laurence had a restful day. His vital signs are remaining stable. I know he is getting the rest he needs for his recovery.

Thank you for reading and your comments. Cell phones are not allowed in the ICU so it's difficult to return calls. Thanks for understanding.

Deborah reminded me of one of my favorite scriptures: "Though the mountains move and the hills shake, my love shall be immovable and never fail, and my covenant of peace shall not be shaken. So says the Lord." Isaiah 54:10.

My energy is simply used up today. It's time for rest. A million times thank you for your energy, prayers and love. Hugs.

Love is Healing

Laurence had a good day yesterday and a restful night. His vitals and blood levels have stabilized. The doctors ran a couple more tests yesterday.

I am so grateful Paula was able to postpone leaving for another week. It is a blessing to have her here and walk through this together.

Thank you so much for your continued prayers and light and love you send. Every prayer is lifting us up. Thank you for sending love. The room felt warmer and Laurence's hands and skin felt warmer yesterday. He is not yet responding but I know he is allowing his body to heal.

I have a wonderful Father's Day present for Laurence. I am leaving to go to the airport to pick up his son Jason.

With deep gratitude and love...

Beams of Love

The night nurse reported Laurence had a restful night. They were able to take him off blood pressure medicine which is very encouraging.

Seeing Laurence in ICU with all the tubes, wires and equipment is unsettling. I decided to see every tube and wire going into Laurence filled with love and light and all the prayers being sent as beams of love into his body and especially his heart.

I was so grateful for sleep and rest. Thanks for all your prayers and love.

Love

Laurence was transferred to ICU early this morning. They are running tests to find the cause of his symptoms. He is breathing on his own but is unresponsive.

I know the power of the incredible healing energy of love. Please continue to send healing thoughts and prayers of love his way. With deep gratitude.

Day +15

The meds relieved Laurence's pain but are now causing him to feel sleepy and disoriented. They also found high levels of the immune suppressant drug which slow down kidney function.

This feels like a roller coaster ride of good days and bad days. Grateful thanks for your prayers of agreement for balance and harmony in Laurence as his body adapts to the newness of his cells.

Great News

Paula's transplanted cells are beginning to reproduce cells in Laurence's body which is great news. Unfortunately, the way we know this is by the increased level of pain that Laurence feels. After a rough night, the staff finally found the right combination of pain relief medication.

Yesterday I learned how to flush the lines in Laurence's port and tomorrow I learn how to change his dressing.

We are so grateful that the process continues to unfold so graciously. Every prayer is deeply appreciated. Blessings.

Many thanks

Laurence sends his grateful thanks for your prayers. His symptoms continue to be manageable. He is tired but comfortable.

Two sunny days in a row in Portland!! Praise God!

Many thanks and hugs.

Day +8

I participated in a class this morning for care givers of transplant patients. I am grateful for the clarity and information that was provided. Laurence is now being tracked by the number of days post transplant. Today is Day +8.

I learned that as Laurence's cells adjust, he will experience a variety of symptoms, especially first 100 days. This is a dynamic process and there is no magic date or test result. There are benchmarks to look for that indicate that Laurence is on track and so far he is.

The doctors adjusted Laurence's meds since Monday and he is doing much better. He is grateful for the cards and emails and we are both appreciative of your prayers. Sending grateful hugs your way.

Angels Around Us

Amber, Christi, Sean and Sam are angels. They are kind, caring, knowledgeable, confident, considerate and compassionate. As is the rest of the staff on the 14th floor. The doctors, nurses, aides, technicians, cleaning staff and food service staff always have a smile and a kind word.

Patient Care Tip of the Week: The next time someone you know is in the hospital, please send cookies, brownies or treats. Your gift allows the patient to give to the the staff. The goodwill created by your gift is immeasurable!

And yes,we graciously accept any treats so that we can show appreciation to the angels around us.

Laurence had some symptoms this morning and they are running tests to find the cause. Thanks for your continued prayers and love.

Headed Home

Laurence's Mom and sister, Toni headed back home to southern California today. (Of course, they left the one day the sun came out!) It was wonderful to have them in Portland. They were a great support for Paula and Laurence and I were so glad they were here.

Paula is an amazing person. She always knew she would be the match for Laurence and has been so enthusiastic about the process. She went through several days of injections to help build her blood which gave her flu-like symptoms. The port installed in her neck was not very comfortable and removing the port was just plain painful. She never complained but was always willing to do what was needed. She is truly a blessing.

Laurence is taking one day at a time and is doing well as his body adjusts to his new blood cells. Most of his symptoms so far are due to the new medications.

Thanks to all of you who are reading this and including us in your prayers. We are so grateful for your love and support. XOXOXOX

Adjustment

Laurence was tired but had a good day today. The days immediately after the transplant are referred to as the honeymoon period. The new cells have found their way into Laurence's bone marrow and are adjusting to their new home for about five to seven days. After they adapt they will begin to produce new blood cells. This is when Laurence may experience fevers, chills and other symptoms and is suspect to infection. We are in prayer knowing harmony in his body and ease and grace in this process.

Laurence will be at OHSU for at least three more weeks. His email address is lmg5783@yahoo.com
His mailing address is:
OHSU
KPV14
3181 SW Sam Jackson Park Road
Portland, OR 97239
Attention: Laurence Green

Thank you so much for your prayers and good thoughts. This is a long process and we appreciate your partnership in knowing wholeness and harmony. Much love from both of us.

Underway

The transfusion part of the process is underway. It will take about two hours to complete. Laurence's vitals will be closely monitored today and in the days ahead.

God Bless You for your prayers and good thoughts.

Apheresis Complete

We're all here in Laurence's room. The doctors decided to proceed as a stem cell transplant.The stem cells engraft faster than bone marrow and the process is easier on the donor.

Paula's process started at 6 a.m. She had a port installed in her neck similar to the one Laurence has. From there she went to another department for the apheresis process where Paula gave blood from which they extract the stem cells. The blood is then counted to determine how many stem cells were produced. If there is not enough, she will give more blood tomorrow.

Paula is a little sore but she is comfortable. Praise God! The actual transplant over to Laurence will happen in the next couple of hours. It is similar to getting a blood transfusion. It takes about a week for the cells to get acclimated to Laurence's body before they will begin producing their own cells.

Thanks for your prayers knowing that Laurence receives Paula's stem cells with ease and grace. Blessings.

Process begins

"The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song." Psalm 28:7

The transplant process begins at 6 a.m. tomorrow. Thanks for your continued prayers and love.

One Mile at a Time

Our friends, the Hill family, all participate in the Leukemia Society Team in Training. Laurence is one of the people named on their honor roll. Tom's next event is the Seattle Rock n Roll half marathon on June 26. Click here for his website and inspirational message. Tom's wife Carolee and their daughters are training for the Nike Women’s Marathon in San Francisco in October. Their slogan is “Changing lives one mile at a time”.

Thank you Hill family for your amazing dedication and love.

Laurence had a tough afternoon. This round of chemo was hard on him but he got through it and was better by the time I left tonight. He has a day off of chemo tomorrow and then the transplant begins on Wed.

When I was with Laurence this afternoon I knew that somewhere, someone was saying a prayer and sending love. Every prayer, every good thought sent our way is making a difference. Thank you so much.

Day Four

Laurence has been able to manage his symptoms during the first four days of chemo. He will receive a more potent drug the next two days. Paula received the first of several injections that help build her blood in preparation for the transplant. The transplant process is scheduled to begin on June 2nd.

Laurence continues to receive exceptional care from the OHSU oncology staff. Each one is amazing in their attitude and professionalism.

Thanks so much for your continued prayers and love.

Agreement for Ease and Grace

Laurence's Mom and sister Toni arrived yesterday from Los Angeles and are staying at the hotel with Paula. We all had a wonderful dinner together last night.

Laurence was admitted today and had the new port successfully installed.

Chemo starts tomorrow. This week of chemo is much more aggressive than the chemo Laurence had in December. I reprinted and posted the acronym for chemo in his room.
Christ
Has
Everything
Miraculously
Ordered

Every prayer is deeply appreciated as we stand in agreement knowing that this process flows with ease and grace. The presence of God has already gone ahead to make the way clear and the path straight. Much gratitude and love.

On Schedule

Laurence is scheduled to be admitted to OHSU on Tuesday. He will have a new port installed in his chest which will allow blood to be drawn. His doctors will also use the port to give chemo which will begin on Wednesday.

Paula has been visiting the clinic this week to give blood and for other tests to prepare for the transplant. The transplant will take place sometime the first week in June. This link will give you more information if you would like to learn more about the transplant process.

Laurence's courage is inspiring. I know God's Love is an enormous well of faith and strength that Laurence is able to tap into and walk this journey as he does with his beautiful smile and gracious heart.

I appreciate all the emails and offers of support for this week. Your prayers are most important and deeply appreciated for ease and grace for Laurence and Paula, wisdom for the doctors and hospital staff, and in knowing that wholeness is revealed. Grateful thanks.

Moving Forward

Laurence has been making good progress with his tests in preparation for the transplant. He brought home a hefty size manual that answers a lot of questions about the transplant and prepares us for the road ahead.

It can be a bit daunting to read about the transplant process. I am so grateful for everyone's prayers. I know the path is made straight with God's grace and wisdom.

Paula arrives tomorrow and begins her process on Monday. Laurence will be admitted to OHSU around the 25th.

Thanks for staying connected and especially for your love and support.

Called to Serve

Two years ago Laurence's oncologist sent him to Standford University to talk with a doctor there who had a clinic trial. Laurence was unable to participate in the trial because he didn't meet some of the health requirements.

The doctor from Stanford called the other day and asked if he could use Laurence's DNA in their research. Laurence said he was glad to participate. The research will help others with the same health challenges and possibly find a cure.

There are many ways that God calls on us to serve. What a blessing.

Grateful

I talked with Paula yesterday to discuss her travel plans. Her company is very generously taking care of all of her travel costs to enable her to be here. Praise God!

Laurence had more tests today. He is a bit tired but is doing well.

Your prayers are making an amazing impact! Thank you so much. I am so grateful God is so gracious.

Deep Appreciation

Laurence had a break from doctor visits for the last couple of days. He is appreciating a few days of rest before appointments start back on Monday.

Some days the process feels very challenging and it is a blessing to know that there are prayers being said around the country. Thank you so much!

A Match!

Paula's test results came back and she is a match! Praise God! The doctors are proceeding with planning for Laurence's bone marrow transplant.

The next few weeks are filled with labs, doctor visits and tests. Laurence will undergo a battery of tests to ensure he is physically capable of undergoing a transplant. Laurence had a bone marrow biopsy today and is resting. As you can imagine, the process is intense and is mentally and physically exhausting.

I will keep you posted on his progress. If you have specific questions, please direct them to me. I am doing my best to protect his energy while he prepares for his procedure.

With deep gratitude and love, we so appreciate your continued prayers. Blessings.

Smile

Laurence is doing well. I was away on a short vacation so he had a very quiet week:) He visits the clinic at least twice a week to get his blood checked. Today he is also seeing his oncologist.

Time for a smile...grandkids having fun.

Paula's Visit

We're having a great weekend visiting with Laurence's sister Paula. She is currently living and working in China and it has been so interesting to hear her stories of life in Shanghai. The weather cooperated and we were able to fit in some sightseeing.

Paula went to the clinic on Friday for her blood test to see if she is a bone marrow match for Laurence. The results will be available in about 10 days.

Laurence's health has been stable. He is scheduled for chemo again later in the month.

Thanks for your continued good thoughts and prayers.

Happy Easter

Thank you for your prayers, loving thoughts and gracious gifts. May the blessings of Christ's love be with you on Easter and always.

Grateful

Laurence continues to visit the clinic several days a week to have his blood checked. He had a blood transfusion one day and received platelets a couple different times. We are so grateful to our friend Zachary and his willingness to help get Laurence back and forth to the clinic.

No news on a donor. Thanks for your continued prayers.
Blessings.

Restful Week

Laurence had a restful week. He made a couple of trips to the clinic for blood work. Chemo depletes any bad cells but unfortunately zaps the body of energy.

We are grateful for gracious friends, continued prayers and for God's Grace.
Blessings.

Sunday

Laurence is at the clinic completing a week of chemo. He is looking forward to finishing up and heading home for a good night's sleep.

Thanks for your continued prayers. We are sending many prayers to you in return.
Blessings.

March Madness

Laurence finished his first day back receiving chemo. Although the schedule is grueling, the process is flowing easily. He has a day of rest and then back to the clinic on Friday.

Personally, I think March Madness is a much better name for a spectacular day of shopping at Macy's. Although I think I understand the madness part...

Anyway, if you are up for shopping, give me a call.
Hugs.

Back for Chemo

Laurence left for chemotherapy treatment this morning. He will be there about six hours. He'll come home to rest and have dinner and then return tonight for another six hours.

The acronym for chemo is: Christ Has Everything Miraculously Ordered
Praise God!

Please know with me that his time at the clinic flows with ease and grace and everything that is needed is already provided. Thank you. Blessings to you for a grace-filled day.

Good Weekend

We enjoyed our weekend. We were able to get out and see a movie on Friday and went out to dinner today. Laurence will have labs done tomorrow to see if his blood level is adequate for another round of chemo.

It's time for a smile and a grandkids photo. Great reminder of the important things in life.
Hugs.

Holding Pattern

Laurence saw his oncologist yesterday. His blood level and other stats looked good.

Laurence will start chemo again next week. We are in a holding pattern until a donor is found. Scheduling will take place about six to eight weeks out once we have the donor.

Thanks for your continued prayers. Blessings and hugs.

National Bone Marrow Registry

Laurence had his blood tested on Thursday and again on Saturday. His level was low on Saturday so he received two units. He rested today.

Several friends have asked about being a bone marrow donor. The National Bone Marrow registry has a list of requirements and answers to frequently asked questions. Unfortunately, only the patient's family is tested to find a match for the patient. You are welcome to be tested for the national registry and have your name put on a list. It is an awesome gift and can help save someone's life.

In the meantime, please know with us that a donor is located with ease and grace. Thanks for your willingness, your prayers and partnership.

Peaceful Dreams

Laurence saw his oncologist today. Last week's heart symptoms seem to be a result of his meds which have been adjusted. He is doing well. Laurence will be back for labs on Thursday to check his blood levels.

Here I am sitting at my desk and chatting away to Laurence in the other room only to walk in and find him sound asleep. I wish I could fall asleep so quickly...

Here's to restful sleep and peaceful dreams.
Blessings.

Home Again

Laurence is home after a routine doctor visit on Tuesday landed him in the hospital for two days. All his tests came back normal. Praise God!

It's true. There's no place like home.
Blessings.

More Tests

Laurence went in for a routine doctor visit on Tuesday morning and had some suspicious symptoms so they admitted him to OHSU for more tests. His EKG and CAT scan came back normal. He had one test late this afternoon and will have another one tomorrow.

As I was leaving the hospital last night, this sweet Ethiopian staff member stopped in to say hello to Laurence. She cleans rooms on the night shift and remembered him from his hospital stay last month. Apparently, she and I had not met before and curiosity was eating away at her. She stopped me in the hall and wanted to know if I was Laurence's cousin. Even though I told her I was his wife, she stopped back at Laurence's room and asked who his friend was. I left knowing that he had lots of friends keeping watch over him.

Thanks for your prayers for more good test results and Laurence back home soon.

Wholeness

Laurence finished his chemotherapy last night. He rests today and then returns tomorrow for a visit with his cardiologist and some tests.

This journey is one of courage, faith and love. Thanks for standing witness to the truth of Wholeness. Blessings.

Seattle Marathon

I forgot to share about our friend Tom Hill who is running the Seattle marathon in June. Here is an except from his message:

It's been almost two years since I last updated you on my crusade against cancer. It is my dream that each time I enter and complete one of these long distance endurance events with the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society Team in Training that it willbe the last one and all that would be left is the "victory lap" because a cure has been found. The good news is, many more people than ever before are surviving and a cure is growing ever closer. However the bad news is wonderful people are still dying from this disease and we can’t stop now. Each time I cross that finish line I want to hang up the shoes and spend my Saturdays doing something other than training, and then another dear friend or family member gets added to my honor role list and it’s back on the road I go. Entering Marathons, asking for donations, and raising awareness that we all must keep up the fight.

You can read more and find out how to support his team at Tom's Page

Thanks Tom for fighting the good fight!!

Day of Rest

Laurence finished his second day of chemo yesterday. He is pretty tired not only from the treatment but from the intense schedule. He has a morning treatment at 8:30 a.m. and gets home around 3 p.m. He leaves again at 9:30 p.m. and is home at 2:30 a.m.
Tomorrow is hopefully his last day at this schedule.

Laurence is resting today. He sends his love and thanks for your prayers.

Choosing Peace

Laurence is receiving chemo this week to make sure all traces of the leukemia are gone in preparation for the bone marrow transplant.

His chemo treatment has to be 12 hours apart. He received treatment this morning. He returns to the hospital at 10 p.m. tonight for his next treatment which is about four hours long. He has such a great attitude about it. I offered to go with him because I was stressing over him driving around in the middle of the night. Laurence assured me that he much prefers this to being admitted to the hospital. I can understand that. He is making a choice for peace instead of stress.

He will repeat the schedule on Friday and Sunday. Thanks for your prayers for ease and grace and knowing that everything needed is provided for. Thanks so much.

Standing in Faith

It's been a quiet few days. A lot of Laurence's symptoms have calmed down. We are waiting to hear from the cardiologist about scheduling his MRI and stress test.

We were disappointed and very surprised on Friday to learn that Laurence's six siblings tested negative for a bone marrow match. The match involves more that a patient's tissue or blood type. There are proteins or markers found on cells in the body. The search involves finding a close match between the patient and the donor. You can read more about it at the Bone Marrow Registry.

Thank you for standing in faith with us knowing that a match is found with ease and grace and in perfect right time. We are so grateful for your prayers. May you be blessed with God's Love today and every day. Happy Valentine's Day.

Strengthening the Heart

We met with Laurence's cardiologist yesterday. He was concerned about Laurence’s heart and the process of another round of chemo. One of the issues is that there is a lot of iron in Laurence's blood from frequent transfusions over the years. He is scheduling an MRI and a stress test which will let him know if that is truly the cause of the symptoms. He is putting Laurence on a low dosage beta blocker which will help regulate his heart.

We were thrilled with how closely the cardiologist is working with the oncologist to make sure Laurence is receiving the correct treatment. He was very easy to talk with and he thoroughly explained his thinking and his plans. We were very grateful.

Laurence and I went out to dinner for his birthday. First time out to a restaurant since December! Thank you for your birthday wishes, emails and calls. Especially for your prayers. Thank you.

Birthday Blessings

Occasionally on this amazing journey of life, we have the opportunity to meet someone who makes a difference in our experience of the world around us. Someone who listens with compassion, who gives without limits, whose beautiful smile brightens a dreary day and whose contagious laugh chases even the darkest clouds away. We meet someone who reminds us that faith is essential, that God is Love, Love is unconditional and the world is a wonderful place to live.

I am truly blessed because I met this person and he is my confidant, advisor, best friend and husband. I thank God each day for the life we share of Grace, Love and Joy.

Tuesday is my beloved's birthday. I believe the world is a better place because of Laurence. Don't you agree?
Blessings.

Peace

Yesterday was rough but today was a much more peaceful day for Laurence. I know prayers are working to bring more balance and peace and renewed energy.

Thank you. You are a blessing!

A Grateful Heart

Laurence and I met with Dr. W. who is overseeing his treatment before the bone marrow transplant. He was puzzled by Laurence's symptoms so he sent him to the cardiologist in another building for an Ecko Gram. The test showed that Laurence's left side of his heart is enlarged which was causing extreme fatigue and other symptoms. (A common side effect of chemo.) Dr. W. prescribed some meds that will help regulate Laurence's heart.

We were there for five hours which would have normally left us irritable. We were so grateful for the time that Dr. W. spent talking with Laurence and also consulting with his other doctors.

Laurence will return next Tuesday for blood work and to see how he is doing with his new meds. Next step will be another round of chemo to prepare him for the bone marrow transplant.

Your prayers are working daily!! Thanks so much for your loving support.

Balance

Laurence received IV fluids and antibiotics on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. He is resting at home today. His symptoms continue to hang on. We visit the doctor tomorrow. Thanks for your prayers for Wholeness and Balance. Blessings to you.

Thanks for the Energy

Chemotherapy causes a number of disorders and reactions in the body, even after treatment has ended. So it is a challenge to know if symptoms are a result of chemo or infection. Laurence had several difficulties this weekend and initially we chalked them up to chemo. I called the clinic this morning and they suggested we come in for some tests.

Good news first. His chest x-ray showed that the infection in his lungs has diminished, which also means that he no longer has to follow a low-bacteria diet. His blood levels also showed improvement. Praise God!

Unfortunately, one of the side effects of chemo is a dramatic change in how food tastes. Laurence is released from the special diet, but food just doesn't taste the same right now. Painful process for a man who loves flavor and cooking!(Doctors advise to stay away from your favorite foods during chemo because of the significant change in taste buds may result in never wanting your favorite foods again!) Some other side effects; low energy, change in eye sight, digestion problems. The staff today prescribed some different meds that will hopefully bring some balance back to his body.

Appointments at the hospital are never brief. Today's was five hours. Laurence has three more this week. We continue to be so grateful for the staff. They work with each other as a team, checking in with each other and asking excellent questions.

Your prayers continue to hold us up, especially on an exhausting day like today. Thank you so much. XOXOXXO

A Request

Laurence is very grateful to be at home. He is resting comfortably and slowly regaining his strength.

He had another bone marrow biopsy today. This test will confirm that the chemotherapy treatment is still doing its job and will also give his doctors information about the next steps for the bone marrow transplant. It takes about a week to get the results back.

Laurence did ask me to pass on a request to you. He feels very fortunate to have a number of siblings that can be tested to find a match. Not everyone has options. Check out the National Marrow Donor Program for more information on how you can be a bone marrow donor.

We learned this week that our insurance company has approved the transplant process. In this time of limited health care, we feel enormously blessed with this news. Your prayers are blessing us each and every day! Thank you!!

Team in Training

We received this message from our friend Tom earlier in the month about his daughter, Heidi.

"I thought you might be interested to know that Heidi completed the Walt Disney World marathon last weekend in your honor. She competes with the Leukemia Society’s team in training. We made a laminated picture of you and pinned it to her race jersey. So if you are a little more tired than normal it’s because you just finished a 26.2 mile marathon! You would have been proud of her (as am I). It was freezing cold – even in Florida- but she hung in there and she & you crossed the finish line together."

Thank you Heidi! You are awesome!
You can read more on Heidi's website.
You can learn more about team in training.

Hugs!

God is Good

I forgot to acknowledge another of God's miracles that happened when Laurence was being discharged yesterday. The nurse stopped by and reviewed his list of new medications. She sent the prescriptions to the hospital pharmacy and told Laurence we could pick them up on the way out. She stopped by again a short time later because she thought she should mention that one of his new medicines had a CO-pay of $1800. That was just the co-pay! The hospital has a special program to defer the cost. She graciously signed him up for the program. Praise God!

Laurence is so grateful to be home and is catching up on his rest. It was a victorious football Sunday. God is Good.

Home Sweet Home

Laurence's doctor was pleased with the improvement in his blood count so he discharged him today!! Yeah! Praise God! It is great to have him home.

Laurence is restricted to being indoors for a few more weeks, except for his doctor appointments. We have a little more freedom with the bacteria-free diet at home. A few good spices makes all the difference in the world.

He has another bone marrow biopsy scheduled later this week. This test will dictate the next steps for the bone marrow transplant. His siblings are receiving their information and will be tested to see who will be a match.

It is so healing to have a venue to share this journey of wholeness and faith. Thank you for reading and for your kind words of support. I will continue to share our progress.

I am at a loss to find appropriate words to express thanks for your love, prayers and gracious acts of kindness you have bestowed on us. I know that blessings are returned to you a hundredfold. Thank you for your partnership in faith. "For nothing is impossible with God."

Two Good Reports

Laurence's latest CAT scan showed that his lungs are much clearer and his infection has diminished significantly. His antibiotic was changed from an IV to a pill form. That will enable Laurence to get a better night's sleep, so he isn't awakened when they change the antibiotic during the night. They are continuing to monitor his blood count.

I had a good report as well. I've been having vision problems lately, especially wearing my contact lens. I saw my opthamologist today and he identified the problem. Apparently, my vision has IMPROVED and things looked blurry with my old prescription. We both had miracles in clarity! Praise God!!

Never!

Laurence's doctor stopped by and told him his blood counts are coming up and are looking good. He is still being treated for a lung infection and waiting for results on the latest biopsy.

When the body is sick, we spend time focusing on healing. When we feel better, we begin to be restless. Laurence is feeling better. And a bit restless. He had a dream last night that he was home cooking one of his fabulous meals.

I was walking laps with Laurence and he was chatting and laughing while we were walking down the hall. One of his doctors called out "When are you going to start acting like a normal patient?" We replied in unison, "NEVER!"

Hugs and kisses.

Prayer Works

I was at the hospital this morning when Laurence's doctors came to see him. There are three doctors that visit him everyday from the Oncology Department. They talked with him and listened to his heart and lungs.

They told him that they were concerned about antibiotic used to fight his lung infection. It is a very aggressive drug and can have severe side effects, especially with the multiple issues that Laurence is dealing with. However, before they prescribed the antibiotic, they examined the latest research which showed that a smaller dose has the same impact on healing the lungs without the dangerous side effects. They opted for the smaller dose which Laurence has been able to tolerate.

When they left we looked at each other and agreed: Another dramatic result of the power of prayer. Praise God!

A Good Day

Laurence had a good day after a tough week of health challenges. His fever is gone and his infection is under control.

He invited one of the other patients to walk laps with him and the patient told the nurse that Laurence walks too fast for him. Praise God!

I echo Laurence's beautiful message of gratitude for your prayers and love. Blessings and Hugs.

A Thankful Heart

Dearest Family, Friends,and Loved Ones. I was sitting here today thinking and marveling that even on my toughest days I have always found something to laugh about. Your cards, letters, e-mails, and prayers all find their precious way into my consciousness. Why even today I got a card from the family pet in Amsterdam New York that made me laugh so loud that I think my neighbors must think I am crazy. Often I find myself overwhelmed with a sense of Love and Compassion that it brings me to tears. Your thoughts and prayers and communications really do make a difference. In turn as I walk the halls I spread that Spirit of Joy to my fellow inmates, I mean fellow patients and staff.

This dance has its hard moments, but I get through them knowing that I am not in this alone. I know that the Blessed Father in the Name of Jesus his Son and through the power of the Holy Ghost that we all are changed for the better. I love you all very much and am grateful for your presence in my beloved and my lives.
Peace now and Always
Laurence

Power of Prayer

The doctors figured out why Laurence's fever would not budge when his CAT scan showed pneumonia. They debated among themselves what meds to give Laurence that would have the greatest impact and least side effects. The first antibiotic dose took effect very quickly and his body responded positively. His fever is finally gone. There are more antibiotics and tests to come.

The doctors explained that we all have bacteria or viruses in the body. A healthy body is able to fight off the bacteria and maintain balance. Chemotherapy does a great job of killing the cancer cells but it also weakens the body's immune system. Laurence's infection is not necessarily new but the body doesn't have the ability to fight it off.

Praise God for prayer! Prayer is the one healing treatment that works regardless of history, symptoms or dosage. You can never have too much and it doesn't matter what kind or when it is delivered. It is written in Philippians: "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus."

Thank you so much for your healing prayers. You are a blessing.

Persistent fever

This is a stubborn fever! Laurence had a few hours of being fever free before it started to return. He manages to maintain a great attitude and a beautiful smile in the midst of fever, chills and flu symptoms.

While the staff is attacking it with antibiotics, I am grateful we are attacking it with prayer. Thanks so much.

Healing Process

When I was visiting Laurence today, his nurse told me that fevers are a natural part of the treatment and healing. If I'm repeating myself, it's because I am trying wrap my brain around that fact. It might be a natural part of the process, but seeing your loved one with a fever and flu symptoms is still hard to take. Laurence's fever just plain wore him out today. I just called the nurse's station to check on him and his fever finally broke and he was doing better. Praise God!

It is a comfort to know so many prayers are being whispered all hours of day and night. I am so grateful. More than you know.

Sports Highlights

Laurence had a good weekend. His football teams won today, so that's a good thing. The Cardinal's beat the Packers in a wild OT finish and the Patriots disappointing loss was a shock to their fans.
(OK, I looked it up on ESPN. I have no clue what happened in sports today but I thought my sports reporting would give Laurence a smile:)

Laurence developed a fever late this afternoon, but it is expected as part of the healing process. The staff is very efficient in following protocol when a fever shows up. They took care of him immediately. His doctor told him he is still a boring patient. Praise God!

I am so grateful to all you lovely angels who have been checking in on me, bringing me delicious meals, taking me out to eat and sending email hugs. Thank you so very much. I feel very loved.

Oodles of hugs back to you. I know your prayers and blessings are returned to you multiplied! XOXOXOX

A Good Report

Laurence met with his doctor this morning and his doctor reported that his latest bone marrow biopsy showed the leukemia to be in remission! Praise God!

Although chemotherapy was able put the leukemia in remission, it did not alter his original blood disorder called polycythemia vera. The doctors will continue to monitor Laurence and ensure that he is receiving blood and platelets as needed. The goal is to have him regain his health and strength so he can prepare for the next step in the process which is a bone marrow transplant.

We are thrilled with this news and send hugs to each and every one of you for your prayers and good thoughts.

Message from Laurence

I spent today watching a pair of Bald Eagles and a pair of Red Tail Hawks riding the thermal waves. They glided and lifted themselves higher and higher exerting precious little effort. They tipped a wing and suddenly were rising higher and higher into the sky.

I felt like them, knowing that so many prayers were lifting my beloved and I higher and higher. Propelled by the grace and love of precious friends and family. I am strengthened in faith and courage by the love of my wife and the love of my beloved friends.
Laurence

Boring is Good

Laurence is feeling much better. His fever left and so did his flu symptoms. He was a little tired tonight but that is to be expected.

His doctors told him he was a boring patient today and to please stay that way. He was glad to hear that and so was I.

Hugs from us to you for your prayers and good thoughts.

Restful Sunday

One of the side effects of chemotherapy is a neutropenic fever and flu-like symptoms. It is how the body responds to the chemo and low white blood cell count. Laurence's fever and symptoms developed yesterday. The staff ran several tests to make sure he doesn't have an infection and they put him on an IV antibiotic.

When Laurence was first admitted, Nurse Debbie explained how important it is to notify the staff immediately when the patient experiences any aches, pains or even minor changes to the body. The sooner the staff knows of a problem, the faster they can address it.

Laurence is feeling better today, though still very tired. It's Sunday and that means there's football. So he is resting comfortably in front of the TV.

I miss my best friend not being here at home. Our house was so quiet, I turned on the football game in the other room so I can function:)

Laurence will mostly likely be at OHSU another two to three weeks. We are grateful for the excellent care he is receiving. Thanks for your love and support.

A New Day

Laurence agreed to let me take his picture today to publish. I thought it was important for you to see his smiling face.

He finished his first week of chemo yesterday. The nurses continue to monitor his vitals, giving him blood or platelets when needed. The doctor will perform a bone marrow biopsy sometime this week to examine the effect the chemo has had on eliminating the leukemia cells. I know we are in agreement in knowing the chemo worked perfectly in eliminating the disease.

The wonderful staff will continue to observe Laurence and his progress to make sure he is clear of infection and any side effects from the chemo.

My faith is renewed each day in knowing all the prayers that are being said around the country. Thank you for your loving support.

From Isaiah30:31
"Yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength; They will run and not get tired. They will walk and not become weary."